Wisdom, knowledge of self

I can remember a time when I was ready to destroy myself. I just could not see myself in society’s big picture, and I allowed myself to make poor decisions. I developed a negative self-image, and at one point, detested the sight of my own “self’ in the mirror.
Mentally, I “fed” myself junk and internalized ignorant information. I wanted to define myself based on carnal influences, and was oblivious to the “puppet strings” that controlled my mind and actions. I was bent on self-destruction. I was lost, and I had to find my “self.”
One day, as I was listening to the radio, I could hear a voice speaking over the loud clamor of music playing and above the monotonous media manipulation on the television. I cut them both off so I could hear the voice. To my surprise, there was no voice. I was just deep in thought. I could actually hear my “self” thinking. There were issues and concerns on my mind, and I wanted to hear my “self” speak on them. I started talking to my “self.” By momentarily freeing my mind of the mental “strings,” I had actually discovered some self-understanding. I was gaining knowledge of “self.” Of course I was still concerned with the cares of the world in which I exist, but I had realized that there was a world within my “self” to be concerned with as well.
I gave my “self” a self-test. I asked my “self” where I saw myself not in five years, but at the end of this year. What goals had I set for my “self”? Was I happy with my “self”?
Did I see my “self” in Heaven if I would have died that day? Unsatisfied with many of my answers, I had to do some self- evaluation. Unhappy with my “self”, I had to develop some self-pride and self-respect.
I know that there are many others out there doing a soul-search for their “selves”. Continue to do so, and you will find your “self”. And those who aren’t, you better check your “self” before you wreck your “self”. And finally, let’s all search the scriptures and find our “selves” in the Lord.