Lately I haveput restrictions on my writing. I haven’t whole-heartedly expressed myselfbecause I was afraid of what the public might think of my opinion.
However, nowI realize that I cannot please everyone and people are going to think what theywant to think regardless. So in that case I have something to say….
I grew up ina church surrounded by heterosexual role models and I was raised as aheterosexual. I never knew an open homosexual and my only exposure tohomosexuality was occasionally hearing it from the pulpit followed by thewords, “sin, abomination, perversion, and Sodom.”
None of thosefacts seemed like real stellar incentives for someone to choose to be ahomosexual, and yet here I am…
Yes, I am alesbian. Yet my sexuality is only a portion of who I am. I have many uniquecharacteristics and capabilities embedded inside my soul. Yet most importantlyI am a Christian.
I am aChristian because I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.
He is thebridge that brings me back into having a relationship with my creator.
I cannot liveas a Christian and hide my sexuality because that would be denying who I am. IfI deny myself, I also am denying God because he created me. However, I do notpressure my sexuality upon others.
My deepestdesire is to live each day doing things that represent and honor Christ. I wantpeople to see the God in me, as I show and express the love that God has givento me.
That is why Itry my best to write motivational and encouraging opinions to help enlightenthe spirits of the readers. I use passages from my biblical readings for ideasof what to write.
A lot of youout there are probably thinking, “This girl is definitely going to hell.” But I beg to differ. If homosexualityis a sin, and sin is what separates us from God then why does my relationshipwith Christ continue to deepen and grow? I also question, isn’t it a sin to judge?If so, we have all been condemned to hell.
ContinuouslyI have experienced Christ’s love and undying mercy.
During thissemester, I have experienced much loss and grief that has shaken me to thecore, but never for a moment has it challenged what I know concerning mystanding before God as a Christian and a lesbian.
Like Imentioned earlier, my lesbianism is only a portion of who I am. Christ has been there for me no matterwhat and he continues to bless me.
He lookspassed what might be negative to others and focuses on my soul, and my soul desiresto be more like him.
